Screenshot 2016-01-19 21.24.15I’m not super good at participating in group discussions. I’ve always been the attendee who *maybe* has something to share, but usually waits………..to see if there is a reasonable pause before sharing it. ProTip: There is rarely a pause like this in Bible discussion groups, so I’m usually off the hook because I just assume what everyone else has to say should be heard and what I *maybe* might want to share probably shouldn’t. There’s my introvert group discussion therapy session for you. So, even though I had two opportunities this week to share this, I didn’t. So I thought I would now.

On Sunday one of our pastors, Jeff Hamling, preached on the vengeance of God (and, incidentally, I now know that the word vengeance has an “a” in it – this could come in handy the next time I want to throw some vengeance around) and, as usual, there were some things I was aware of, as well as that one thing that it seems was just revealed to me for the first time ever. That thing for me on Sunday was that if I’m to be perfectly frank, I know I’m supposed to leave vengeance in the hands of God, but, if I’m honest, and I mean HONEST, I don’t really trust God to do a very good job with that.

*gasp*

Confession, it’s good for the soul.

But, I think this is why I don’t really trust God to exact justice the way I think it should be meted out – I’ve talked myself into thinking I have a better plan and that better plan includes not only forgiveness and restoration, but first exposure and vindication! That’s right and fair, no?

But, no. It’s neither. And God does not need my help in developing the plan of restitution for wrongs done. He never has.

On Sunday, I think the light bulb moment came for me not in hearing that my place isn’t to condemn and pass out demerits (blast…my ISTJ loves doing just that) – I know those things. The moment of realization came when Jeff said that God IS a God of Justice. And he WILL act on our behalf. And he WILL restore all things. And…here it is: The way He enacts his justice will ultimately be satisfying for me.

Seriously? I can trust God to do this? To not just ask me to forgive and move on, but that He will take care of wrongs done in a way that I will say, “That is exactly what I was hoping for.”

Because maybe He will change my own heart in the process to move my desires to be more in line with His, hence ushering in the perfect plan of restitution that leaves me wanting nothing more.

Psalm 51:10, “Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me.”

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Screenshot 2016-01-19 21.55.09Tonight we invited Maddie’s entire class over for dinner. We had five of them take us up on the offer. I told them, “Come dressed in your Sunday best, the Dunham Family will do the rest!” They had no idea what was coming.

It was a Choose Your Own Adventure Dinner. I gave them menus with winter words on one side of the sheet and colors on the other and they had to match them up together and then order them from 1-5. This became their order of entree as well as which utensil they got to go with it. Here you see these two guys who both choose the knife option for course #3, though one matched his up with his lasagna, while the other got the knife with his salad.

I snapped a photo of the whole group, but the timing was unfortunate for a couple of them who had just taken bites of whatever they had in front of them at the moment and because I’m not completely heartless, I opted to not post that one. (Maddie’s friends…you can thank me later…).

This was super fun time with a great group of high-schoolers.

It’s no secret I love babies and the toddler and preschool years were happy ones around here. But I’m totally loving this stage as well. That is all.

 

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January 4, 2016: Orange you sweet?

January 4, 2016

One of my sweet new friends where I work went to California for Christmas to be with her family. She brought me back a ginormous bag of oranges. *LOVE* She volunteers in my office twice each week and – seriously – she makes Mondays and Tuesdays awesome. I love seeing her walk in when she […]

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January 3, 2016: I love this space

January 3, 2016

The house we’re in is only half the size of the last one, but it’s much newer and it suits us. Sure, it gets crowded in here sometimes, but I’m still grateful for it. And I particularly love this area right here – complete with one of Chloe’s bags, one of Katie’s headbands, and Millie’s […]

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January 2, 2016: Whole30 Take 3

January 2, 2016

Because periodically we need a major reset and this? This works. Every single time. What doesn’t work is completing it and going straight back to our old habits immediately for the next three months. Ah, well, Christmas was maybe kind of worth it. But we’re all kind of glad to be back on this plan […]

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January 1, 2016: Here we go!

January 1, 2016

Fresh year, fresh start. If 2015 taught me anything it was to not place my hope in a brand new year. We’re right smack in the middle of one of the hardest anniversaries on the planet and it’s hard not go to back to Oklahoma in my head and try to think about what was […]

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A Sweet, Sad Tree

December 25, 2015

I stare at my tree. It’s not a real tree. It’s artificial. It’s not super tall. It’s not super wide. But it’s super full of memories…memories in knick-knack form hanging from a hook next to the remaining candy canes and two humble strands of lights. My tree would not win any decor awards (are there […]

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On the Eve of my 42nd Birthday

November 26, 2015

You know those memory flashbacks that Facebook is so fond of posting, giving us the choice as to whether or not we want to remind others of what happened on that day 1 year, 2 years, or 5 years ago? So this one came up for me today: On the eve of my 40th birthday. […]

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It’s a Chili Night

August 24, 2015

Have you ever gone to bed and lay there wondering why you can’t fall asleep even though it’s late and you have a lot to do the next day, but the laundry has been done, and the dog has been taken out, and you found the paperwork you have to take with you tomorrow, and…OH […]

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Bozeman, Bozeman, Take Me In. Are You Aware the Shape I’m In?

June 9, 2015

During the month of May my family succumbed to the Whole30 eating plan, which was equal parts crazy and brilliant. Brilliant, because we were moving, so I was able to either toss or give away everything that was non-compliant with the plan, but crazy, because we were moving, so I was also packing up the […]

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