I have a new friend who is pretty much awesome and does awesome life changing things for other people. I casually mentioned one of the blog projects I was working on the other day and she very innocently said, “Yeah, I’ve wondered what’s going on with your blog.”
I know. Me too.
Here’s the deal. I mentioned a little bit ago that we’re having to figure some financial stuff out in a pretty significant way. In a pretty significant, “Maybe it’s time Megan actually found herself a job,” kind of way. In a, “Yes, I applied for part time work at a local Christian bookstore, a natural foods grocery store, and a toy store at the mall,” kind of way. In a, “I’ve thought about using my Early Childhood Education degree to seek employment as a part-time preschool teacher at a nearby daycare center from 2-6pm every day,” kind of way. In a, “I’ve written down the online application form website for two fast food chains, but just can’t bring myself to do that yet,” kind of way.
If I haven’t scared you away for good from my blog, then you know I’ve been doing a lot of posts for Social Fabric lately. I LOVE getting gigs from Social Fabric. Those are the ones I’m always hoping for more to come my way because the more that do, the less I have to think about asking strangers if they want fries with that. In short, it’s the perfect part-time job because I’m always going to the store ANYWAY and I can do the blog part at home on the school days or when my family is sleeping, so I don’t feel this guilt of giving my best hours over in exchange for minimum wage.
The review posts I’ve lightened up on a little since migrating the two blogs back into one, but I know I still do quite a bit of those. That wouldn’t be so bad except that they really have taken the place of any actual thinking content I might otherwise be compelled to provide. And I do like getting the things I review for free.
Free is my love language.
But that leaves me with this sense of having sold-out. I’m not trying to use YOU as some twisted means to my financial end. I’m just trying to leverage what I have (a blog) and the time I have (two days/week and various evenings) to do something that really does benefit our family in a tangible way. Because no matter how hard things get around here, I’m simply not willing to do something outside of my primary calling to be present in our home, with my family, first.
But that leaves me with the question, “Yeah, I’ve wondered what’s going on with your blog.”
I don’t have a super great answer for that yet except for me too.